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By changing the true feelings wholeheartedly (two)
09:32, 28 December 2009
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"Ah! Really? Then has she promised? " I am extremely nervous. Have just seen her expression can be guessed to one or two fen tooed."Having promised, but there are conditions. " She bows the head, does not seem very willing to go on.
A bit filled with anger that I have heard, " she has owed you so many, just help you to also have a condition to pay some tuition? ! What condition? "
"Yes, the condition is Exactly Let me not go back to foster father's foster mother's place again forever. She would like to give them 3000 yuan as compensation. " Whom she choke with sobs say.
"Have you promised? If you have promised, I will never recognize your friend. Loving-kindness in you, foster mother of foster father, I believe, have anything can than go down, let alone the money. Besides study in high school have meal take, you both hands both feet well, so long as enterprising, can go out of a one's own road. Your foster father's foster mother has no you to mean losing the whole world, they have only you alone, only such your daughters. " I am a bit excited, a bit angry too.
"You are not angry, don't be angry. I have not promised, because too angry I am too to just run back stealthily. " She is hurry explaining, waves and shakes the head.
"Move, I accompany you raise parents' house. " Washing washes and changes a suit, go back to one's own kennel drawing her. The ones that as the saying goes are good, the silver nest of gold nest is the warmth not so good as one's own kennel.
Have reached the gate of parents' home of raising, have not entered the door yet, heard her breeder mother's voice: "Where did she go? Disappearing very early in the morning. I am extremely anxious, she can go to somewhere, it is your place to go back. Tell me quickly, where you hide her? " Every sentence is all overbearing in the speech.
"We do not really know, she has disappeared, we are very anxious too. Let's go to look for quickly. " It is her foster father, servile tone, really let me feel and love.
"No,we first solve lose another things first. Here is 3000 yuan, raise being clear the adult for repaying your married couple. She needs good environment now, does not she want to study in the high school very much? I would like to appear too in money, so long as she no longer gets back to here. " This world is like this, colourful, there are all kinds of people of kind. Life of others' domination that it can be bold and assured that the person against one's will is still.
I emit fire 10 meters kick the door and is entered, has not considered either, that small wooden door can stand this a kick of mine. "Shut up for me! You have gone too far, is mothers of people in vain. " Enter the first thing of the door and give this breeder mother a sentence of ruthless words first.
"Who are you? " Her expression in one's eyes of growing the master tape and studying stares at me.
"I? I am your daughter's best friend. "
"Don't in charge of others' other people's business of home, young, what is understood? " She is a little unhappy.
"If is others' thing, I do not still bother to manage. Ask what I understand? I understand conscience, I understand loving-kindness. How about you? A few days ago, listen to your narration sympathizing with somewhat, actually thought too you retrieved her originally, ask her to forgive, it is from the bottom of one's heart to want her reunion. Have never expected you are so base, 3000 yuan, you want to buy out the kindred between them by 3000. You be watched very much, blow 3000 these, look down upon loving-kindness very much? For other two children, you do not hesitate to remarry, prefer to bear others behind you and give directions, let others laughing stock when tea is chatted about after a meal. Do not wish them to suffer hardships either, not future. It is likewise one's own, why have so big difference? You are clear too that bring a child up by oneself, not only a question of the money, the more important thing is mental and physical efforts, with tears and heart-broken to have kind care see them grow up. The environment that you came to an agreement just now, how is she this several decades, did you know? To her, this is her best environment, teach her how to conduct oneself here. If let you take away, I'm afraid her soul will go bad. " The croak has said one is great and open in my one breath ji. I never answer back to elders, this is good teaching the wind of our family. Just the behavior of this person made one's blood boil at the moment at this moment, my anger broke through reason.
Her breeder mother just sheds the tears, no longer refute with one's head low. For a long time She opens one's mouth again: "Clear, would you like to treat this, or go back with me? "
"Treating this, I have only a mother and a father, is them. " She points to and raises parents, the determination without the least hesitation is sure and the definite her breeder mother of answer.
At night, she and I stayed and accompanied raising parents to have a meal. Though there are only two or three pieces of vegetable dish, ugly and so little tone on the desk. But what I ate is with relish, full of endless joy.
From that day, her foster father's foster mother treats me as one's own daughter. Although I have not called parents, have already regarded them as one's own parents in the heart.
So-called " willing to " ,Give up and just have. Because clear filial deep emotion raise parents, raise parents hesitate for her all borrow the money from neighbour's everywhere. When borrow the money, a kind neighbour suggests her raising parents and letting her study in and defend the school, it is said this neighbour has a niece who studies in and defends the school too, has tested a nurse, it is very steady to work now, it is much better to study in the high school than to go. Hear this piece make people behind the excited news, raise parents tell us at once for it, determine, register hurriedly.
Those three years, I strove in high lieutenant colonel's garden in the town, under the prerequisite of preparing college entrance examination, practice hard painting technology. And she studies medicine in a schools defended in the city, we have letters to come and go intermittently during this time. Keeping in touch. After the three year, I admit to a university smoothly, at time when I goes to the college, whom she has succeed in already become one nurse, work in a private hospital, the salary is very high, but I still rolled to climb in the campus, own future of the achievement has come with parents' capital to continue.
Read for big two that years, she gave me and had a phone convesation, told me that the foster father passed away because of cancer of getting. Before this, she word mention with me only. In her at the other end of the telephone, follow in the past unbending then still, she wanted to control one's own mood, do not want to let me know how sadly she leave to worry about her. It's a pity she forget, until important period of time that who accompany that she spend most, she and raising the emotion between parents, I can not understand.
Choose, let day that foster father is bury, she streamline phone give to me, ask me whether I can participate in the funeral. I think, one has been promised without the brain. Who knows after letting my own mother know, burst into a rage to me. Talk about her and me although the emotion is good, it is really unreasonable to attend a burial, has not shared benefit with relatives and friends at all. I left rub ji right rub tangle mother of ji give up, get end, mother break I, have to promise me to send wreath to, but can't participate in the funeral. This is her biggest concession, I have not blamed mother's meaning at all, I am her daughter after all, have any bad thing to me, she will be as sensitive as hedgehog, protection I that take every care. I only move, there are no complaints.
That day when sent wreath to, she was helping mothers to wash the bowl, smiling at me of a face with silly kind, "how have you been? " I am a little worried.
"I very fine OK, and I must want very good too, otherwise mother of me take what is to be done? " She laughs foolishly from me, the ones that smiled are so forced, so tired out.
"Is it the ocean? Do you come? " Her foster mother comes out of the inner room.
"Right, it is me, I am unable to come to participate in the funeral, so send this wreath up first today. Really very sorry, because of I happened to have a class that day. " What some of me answered has a guilty conscience, but I can not say I can't come because my mother is not willing. That is my mother after all, I want to take her feeling into account, she loves my feeling, I believe they will forgive.
"It doesn't matter, it doesn't matter, it doesn't matter, you can give wreath come, be watched, get up we house old fogey, the old fogey of our family is before death, praising you for being obedient without a break, is wanting to see you. You and clear a neither relatives nor friends one, we of we, very getting rare so. " Grateful kind of a face of foster mother, let me love especially. She came over to say shaking hands with me: "The clear sub person of one's own mother, may not be certain to remember this feeling too, you stranger did instead, the ones that do not really have say. "
"Auntie, what do you say at this moment? What is stranger? Than loud two months such as me, I have already called her sister, although I did not call you the mother clear a month, but in my heart, have already regarded you as mother. There is importance at all of blood relationship, do not you raise being clear and grow up too? Fall for the brother, why kiss with the meat. I and clear to share benefit with relatives and friends at all, better than the blood sister we. I oneself study still, can help, get what she order among actual life just, I feel ashamed and regretful very much. " I ashamed.
"Where to talk about this? Can know your friend, I, as her mother, glad for her, happily! " She has excited hand which catches me, it is the tighter to catch. I experience her to the clear love deeply, the trust to me.
I graduated from university that year, went back to the People's Hospital in the town clearly, several months later, the becoming a full member type staff smoothly. I feel glad for her, it is unable to express in speech. Invite her to revel for one night together.
Now, how many people are waiting for others for the wholehearted one first, will think about how much oneself really pays? Put pieces of abacus in heart always, Pi Pi fighting loud pa pa, regard as the gain and loss. Even others offer wholehearted already, want, take, come out, calculate, it has to be and false really somewhat the true feelings too, regarded as oneself and has not lost money.
Don't regard oneself as a canary, let one's own life finish in that exquisite and small and exquisite cage. Your heart is not for keeping a lookout, it is raw but in order to fly.
Nowadays, I have work too. We have grown up, ripe too. During the decade, around environment change, walk, when street, know, have how much people and we wipe shoulder and miss, the one that is very happpy is, ten years ago, I and too clear to miss each other. Ten years later, our friendship remains unchanged. The one that is happpy even more is, having let me witness to, sometimes blood relationship is not the assurance of the emotion. To raise parents is heavier, deeper than that of the sea than the mountain to clear loving-kindness. I firmly believe, the children of she and I will be the good brother in the future, good sisters. Even if different blood flows in the body, we can kiss like whole family equally, because we can be by changing the true feelings wholeheartedly.
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